To The People Who Undermine My Gym Membership Because I Still Don’t Look As Lean As The Victoria Secret Angels You’ve Been Watching Repeatedly on Star World (eg my family)

– I wish you’d go to the gym with me to see that there are all sorts of body sizes there, trying to make a difference in their health and overall wellness. Unlike you.

– They will intimidate you with their determination, stamina, and strength. You’ll be ashamed of your own lazy asses.

– I wish you’d try to exercise harder and longer to feel the only pain that feels good. I wish you’d sweat as much as we do so you’ll realize that it does not take a flat tummy to actually start feeling good about your bodies.

– If these gym people hear what you’ve been telling me, you’ll be met with more than just a dry smile and a blog. You don’t dare judge a routine you have never been in.

– Your inactiveness is scary. But your arrogance is scarier. If only you’d stop laughing at the exercises I’m trying to teach you.

– Lastly, thank you. Because your words will make me work harder – to be fitter. Not thinner.

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So 2009

A survey note from 2009 answered today: 11/24/2015

 

What is the last thing someone bought you?
-DINNER? I SERIOUSLY CANNOT REMEMBER THE LAST TIME SOMEONE BOUGHT ME ANYTHING.

Who was the last person you talked to last night in person before bed?
– MARVIN

Do you drink Iced Tea?
-YES.

Have you ever stayed up at night waiting for someone to call/text you back?
– OF COURSE. I ALWAYS WAIT FOR PEOPLE TO TEXT BACK WHEN THEY SHOULD. (Borrowing Lisha’s 2009 answer)

Whats your boyfriends/ girlfriends name?
– MARVIN

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
– THERE SHOULD BE. I CAN’T THINK OF ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, THOGUH.

Is there something you’re looking forward to?
– YES. MY IDEAL BODY. LELZ.

Is there someone you want to kiss right now?
– I WOULD LOVE TO HUG AND BURY BABY LUCAS IN KISSES RIGHT NOW. -.-

When did your last hug take place?
– LAST NIGHT

Who saw?
– WALA. KAMI RA. HAHA. SIKRETO MANA. (AGAIN, LISHA’S 2009 ANSWER I’M BORROWING)

Are you a jealous person?
– NO.

Are you a stressed out person?
– EXTREMELY.

What’s your relationship status?
– STEADY

I’ll bet you miss someone right now?
– TERPY AND CARMS.EVERYDAY.

When/Why did you last cry?
– TWO WEEKS AGO.

Was yesterday better than today?
– TODAY IS ALWAYS BETTER.

Where did you go in a car last?
– MAMAY VILLAGE – SSS BAJADA, KUYA

What was your last dream?
– SOMETHING ABOUT TRAVELING AND AIRPORT.

Were you single on your last birthday?
– NOPE.

Were you happy when you woke up?
– MY DEFAULT ‘EMOTION’ WHEN WAKING UP ON WEEKDAYS IS: TIRED

Are you addicted to anything?
– YES. COFFEE. OVERSPENDING.

Have you held hands with anyone this past week?
– YES

Ever go camping?
– YES! YES! ONE OF MY HAPPIEST DAYS

If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
– BOARDING HOUSE. SLEEEEPING. OR LETICIA BY THE SEA, CHILLIN LIKE A VILLAIN

How did you get your last bruise?
– MASSAGE. SERIOUS!

Where was your default picture taken?
– BACOLOD!

What were you doing at 3am this morning?
– SLEEPING

Have you made a mistake this past week?
– YES. AND LAST WEEK, TOO. AND IN THE COMING WEEKS.

Is there anything in your past that you’d like to try again?
– NOTHING.

Will this weekend be a good one?
– WEEKENDS ARE ALWAYS GOOD.

Is your room clean?
– NO.

How many tattoos do you want to get?
– ONE.

What is the latest you’ve stayed up in the past week?
– 3:30 AM :(

Do you like being around a large group of friends, or a best friend
– BEST FRIENDS PLEASE.

Where’s your phone right now?
– ON MY DESK.

Is there a night you would like to put on repeat?
– DEFINITELY!

Have you ever fallen asleep while texting someone?
– YEZZZZZ..

Have you ever kissed someone in a vehicle?
– OF COURSE

If you jump, can you touch the ceiling of the room you’re in?
– HAHA! NO.

Say you marry the last person you texted, what’s your new last name?
– MATEO. HAHA

Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
– YES.

What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
– 1,2,3,4,5,6,6 AND HALF (COUNTING THE HOURS OF SLEEP I CAN GET) LELZ.

If your boyfriend or girlfriend cheated on you, would you take them back?
– NO.

Do you think its bad for teenage girls to get on birth control?
– PILLS!? PILLS, YES. CONDOMS, GO!

If you were kicked out of your current residence who do you call?
– MARVIN.

Honestly, if you could go back and change something in the past 5 months would you?
-NOTHING. I’M DONE FIXING WHAT’S ALREADY HAPPENED. CHOS

Would you ever get your nipples pierced?
– NEVAH.

Do you like to have long hair or short hair
– LONG.

Do you wash your hair in the shower?
– YES. EVERY OTHER DAY.

Have you ever kissed anyone who’s name starts with L, T, J, F, N, A, D, R, C?
– NO.

Do you get along with guys?
– YES.

Are any of your friends so close to you that you consider them family?
– AWWWWW YES.

Last person you cuddled with?
– MARVIN

Are you afraid of the future?
– NOT ANYMORE. WOW, FEELS SO GOOD TO SAY/TYPE THIS. FINALLY.

What is your biggest fear about making a total commitment to someone?
– THE PROCESS OF UNLEARNING THE THINGS WE’VE LEARNED TO DO TOGETHER.(AWWWWWW!!!!!! LISHA’S 2009 ANSWER, THAT’S STILL SO TRUE UNTIL NOW)

Will you be in a relationship in the next month?
– YES.

Are you happy with the way life is going?
– COULD BE BETTER. BUT YES. :)

Do you laugh easily?
– YES.

Would you rather take a relationship really slow or really fast?
– LET’S TAKE IT SLOW

What happened at 9:00am today?
– WORK LIFE HAPPENED.

What were you doing at 2:02 this morning?
– SLEEPING.

Do you want your tongue pierced?
– NO.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
– OF COURSE.

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Neverwhere

How is it that after all these silent years, he still feels like home to me?

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What To Do When You’re Unmotivated To Work

This morning, I found myself wishing that my usual 10-minute ride to the office will be extended.. for an hour or more. I wasn’t ready for another office day. The lack of motivation is draining but I’ll try to fight it until I no longer can. Meantime, here’s what you and I can do to when we hit motivation-deficiency at work: Continue reading

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Life So Far

Well, it’s been really, really sloppy.

But it’s the kind of sloppy that makes me cringe and smile at the same time. I know it’s not the year end yet, but things has gotten really overwhelmingly new lately that I have to write them down. That, and I also wanted to recover my writing voice (if I still have it).

I started 2015 with no expectations, no set goals, no resolutions. Somehow, I still knew that it was going to be better. So I treaded through the days – sometimes really slowly, oftenimes clumsily fast. Started the year by hopping on a plane to Cebu with people I barely know, for purposes I didn’t clearly understand.
I also hastily decided to move to a new place with my cousin, despite knowding how inaccessible the place was for me. My previous place was just a 15-minute walk from my office. I even had my own CR. I lived, quite miserably in that new place. I had to deal with my overly-attached, nosy, and anti-boyfriend landlady. I slept to the loud laughs of guys having their post-basketball drinks. I’m not good at bad decisions. For years, I’ve always been so careful and safe with my decisions.

Later, I was going to find out that it won’t be the first and last decision that I was going to make. The recurring theme of my days turned out to be: hasty decisions – regrets – damage control.
More unwelcome circumstances followed, including my lolo’s health, which certainly tested the family’s strength. It tested my sanity. It also taught me how irrelevant money is, once health gives in. In the middle of that, I managed to sneak in more impulsive travels, hoping to getaway and forget temporarily. I reached an almost non-existent savings account. My mind was constantly crowded. It’s far from what I’m used to. Strangely though, I find myself craving for the younger, easier years less.
The present preoccupies me a lot. I still have those bouts of fear of the future, but they don’t shake me as much.

While writing and vaguely admitting the messes I’ve had in the past months, I realized that most of them happened because I was alone in my decisions. I consulted my parents less about where to go, what to do with my money, what to do with my life. It came with the freedom I got the moment I decided to move out. Do I regret it? No. I’m finally able to make my own mistakes, and fix them too. It’s tough and a little lonely, but I also get to do what I’ve always wanted to do. Decorate my own room, do my own laundry, go home whenever I want, and explore more places. I get to be really carelessly young, never mind if it’s a little too late at 25.

I moved to a new place now. A better, more accessible and private one. I’m starting to recover my savings. I’m opening up to new people, who make me think about the future less.

I even feel directionless, but it doesn’t bother me. It’s a good feeling, not being compelled by any uncertain goal.

Too many exciting things unfold once you just let it all go and flow. It’s going to be another sloppy ride ahead, and I’m ready!

 

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Dahilayan Adventure

I meant to blog about our anniversary trips every year but two months after, I really don’t know what to say, anymore.  So I’ll just share our itinerary and never-before-seen pictures for the sake of this anniversary blog tradition. LOLzie. 

Here’s our 2-day itinerary as public commuters:

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The Mt. Puting Bato Experience

This is not the kind of blog entry I had in mind while still anticipating my first ‘real’ hike at Samal’s famous Mt. Puting Bato.

Ours is quite a different story. Though we consider our self lucky to have made it to the peak with our body parts in tact, we weren’t lucky enough to evade the cruel intentions of some humans who basically thrive on stealing campers’ things.

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