I have an active gym membership and I use it reguarly.
Believe me, whatever judgments you have about gym memberships, I had them too.
It’s too impractical.
It’ll make me fat when I stop.
I don’t like being around a lot of people.
I don’t like weights.
There are free ways to exercise.
The list could go on. For a time, I tried to avoid admitting I go to the gym due to the fear of being judged, and the pressure to manifest results. You know, girl issues. Imagined audience and perspective.
Recently, I realized there’s nothing to be ashamed about. In fact, I have a lot of things to be proud of. I am doing my body a favor, regardless if it’s impractical or if the gym’s constantly full of conyo girls and boys. I make time for fitness.
The first month was about experimenting. Trying out everything the gym has to offer, except the weights equipment. I attended several group classes, including yoga! Yoga isn’t for me. Not yet. My friends and I made it a point to go to the gym everyday, mainly to get the most out of our monthly payment! Eventually, I found myself visiting the gym regularly because I can feel my body asking me to.
I also used to say that I don’t want to be locked into a certain fitness program, but I do eat my words a lot and I’m now hooked on Fit Series – basically our gym’s version of Cross Fit. This so far is one of my biggest and earliest achievements. It’s something I never thought my body was capable of doing, but it has been my primary routine for the past two months. Your body can do anything, if you will it enough. Promise. Take it from the clumsy-me. It never gets easier, and I don’t want easy. Oha! Each time the trainor demonstrates the exercise per station, my hands gets all sweaty, my body’s reaction to tension or nervousness.
I have learned to the love that kind of nervousness, though. I’m addicted to the sense of relief and pride I feel after completing all three sets of grueling exercise routines. One good thing about Cross Fit is it really permits you to move at your own pace. You can cheat, you can rest, you can push your limits, YOU CAN WALK OUT AFTER ONE SET. It challenges your discipline and commitment. You only get what you worked for.
I wish I could tell you an inspiring and motivating story about how much weight I lost after three months of going to the gym. But, I do not have drastic weight changes, I’m far from a bikini body. I only measure my progress. I want to be able to do more cardio reps, to carry heavier weights, to jog faster and longer, and more importantly to eat clean. For now, I’m more than happy to no longer feel fat, even if other people still think I am. My own family calls me fat, and I just smile. Because I know that I’m not stagnating, that I am taking care of my body even though I don’t pass other people’s standards of sexy.
We need to stop appreciating bodies for their weight or aesthetics. I have attended cardio classes where seemingly thinner and younger girls give up sooner than the older and ‘thicker’ ones.
We should all aim for sustainable fitness. If morning jogs sustain you, do it. If no-rice diet works for you, go for it. For me it’s going to the gym and quitting fast food and soda (hopefully, minimizing breads soon). It’s no longer impractical because I reaped way more benefits from my membership fee. I will not gain weight when I stop because I do not intend to stop. I like being around people who value fitness even more than I do, even if some of them are conyo. Haha! And yes, there are lots of free exercises out there but it does not work for me, I cheat a lot when I’m alone. :D
The true expression of self-love is consciously and actively taking care of our bodies, instead of constantly taking it against people who criticize us. Let them. Keep on…… :)